I have an empty feeling today. The normal day is no longer. This day will become the new normal. I'm sure I will enjoy it soon. Today though, I feel empty and worry and longing to see my kids. I don't konw that I am the example to set for them. I was constantly going over and over the plan for the morning and after school. I forgot Leiton's jacket and had to return with it. I walked Hali to her locker, but not to her classroom. Was that right? I worry that she came upon a problem that if I had been there wouldn't have been. Leiton played brave, though I knew underneath he was about to lose his tears. I am so proud how he found his locker and went right to his class and desk without looking behind. I worry they can find each other after school so they can get on the bus for the first time ever. I worry that they know when to get off. I worry about how they are going to react when they get home about their day. Will they be excited or will they let all steam blow that they have been holding in all day. I pray. I take the advise I gave to Hali last night and give my worries to God.
In God's Hands
5 years ago
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They sure leave a big hole when they are gone, don't they? Both of my boys are so independent... they take the bus and do not want me there for the first day, but then I show up when they are more settled and they get excited to see me again at school.
It went pretty fast today, but I had lots to do I guess. How did it go for you? Nolan said Mrs. Reider is nice.
I paced all day. I actually took Boden to Sunmart and we just walked around. I waited at the bus stop and was THAT embarrassing mom. I walked them in again today. I don't see any other parents doing that. What is wrong with me?? Hali really likes Mrs. Reider. When I ask Leiton what his favorite thing about the day is he say "coming home to me"....AAAAwwwwwwwww!
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