First day of school

I have an empty feeling today. The normal day is no longer. This day will become the new normal. I'm sure I will enjoy it soon. Today though, I feel empty and worry and longing to see my kids. I don't konw that I am the example to set for them. I was constantly going over and over the plan for the morning and after school. I forgot Leiton's jacket and had to return with it. I walked Hali to her locker, but not to her classroom. Was that right? I worry that she came upon a problem that if I had been there wouldn't have been. Leiton played brave, though I knew underneath he was about to lose his tears. I am so proud how he found his locker and went right to his class and desk without looking behind. I worry they can find each other after school so they can get on the bus for the first time ever. I worry that they know when to get off. I worry about how they are going to react when they get home about their day. Will they be excited or will they let all steam blow that they have been holding in all day. I pray. I take the advise I gave to Hali last night and give my worries to God.

Taking a break.

I am taking a break from taking a break from blogging. Recently my beloved Blackberry decided it wasn't going to work anymore. I never thought I would be one of those people who could not get by without a cell phone...I hate talking on the phone, but I love checking emails and facebook and what have you at any time. My warranty of course is up and I'm not due for an upgrade until November. I am searching for a Verizon phone now on my computer. I hate being on the computer. It seems as if the minute I get on I get SO mad and frustrated because it is slow and everyone needs me and I end up not getting anything accomplished except for making kids and myself cry. I have been making a list in my head of all the places I need to go online and once I finally get a few quiet moments and the computer is working I can't think of one darn thing. Oh, I just remembered one now....I need to do my pictures I tried to download. I'll have to write that one down. Ok, what I just wrote wasn't what I started out wanting to blog about here and now for the life of me I can't remember what I was going to blog about. Isn't it fun getting inside my head? Now you know why I always appear oh, what's the word....CONFUSED all the time.